Anyhow, point being, I’m finally done. So yeah, on the off chance that anyone cares to see some of what’s ate up a huge chunk of my life these past two months (and gave me something to do while my sites were being moved), here you go:

…But yeah, even though this was my first foray into not only the Persona games, but ANY of the Shin Megami Tensei games, I’m totally ready for December, when Persona 4 is supposed to be released in North America. It looks like it might manage to be even stranger than the one I just finished, heh.

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Well, that’s done.

Unfortunately, I have two reservations about my Adderall prescription, both of which I have mentioned before: the fact that I hate the idea of being reliant on amphetamines to be able to think properly, and the fact that it costs upwards of $100 per month to fill my prescription - even when getting generics. This train of thought led me to getting a sort of “trial” prescription for Wellbutrin, which supposedly can help with Adult ADD.

Worst idea of my life. I don’t think that I have ever reacted so violently to any pill; even the time that I tried Lexapro to stabilize my blood pressure and instead just developed an omnipresent pain-to-the-touch in my skin. No, this was much worse. Within about a week and a half, I was not only thrust into crushing depression (I remember my mother carting me around to therapists when I was younger, convinced that I was depressed; I didn’t think I was then, now I know that I wasn’t, because what I have been feeling in the past few weeks was just hopeless and awful and strangling and… completely something that I had never before experienced), but I couldn’t move without excruciating pain shooting through every part of my body. I quickly figured out that somehow my body was so incredibly sensitive to the drug that even being - and I am not exaggerating - 10-15 minutes off of 24 hours between pills would, in essence, leave me crippled: I could only sit in a strange, L-like hunch (as a quick side note, to cure my boredom while my sites were being moved, I took a strange Death Note/Jung combination personality test that labeled me as sharing the INTP personality type with none other than L; although that varies slightly from the other test I took recently that categorized me as INTJ, which this test associated with Near. Since Near - in my opinion - comes off as an arrogant, insufferable jerk, I’m going to just decide to go with INTP instead, ha) with one side of my abdomen constantly curved. And other movement - or taking too deep of a breath - would make me want to scream, it hurt so fucking bad.

Within about three days of this, I made the obvious decision to begin weaning myself off of the Wellbutrin. This ended up taking so much longer than it should have - like, three times longer than I’d even been taking the pills in the first place; sure, I was cutting the pills smaller and smaller each day, then every other day, but still: even a slight difference in the timing of my pill consumption and I would be a physical wreck.

I am on my fourth day without ingesting any of that stupid, stupid pill and while the physical pain is gone, I am still feeling a bit listless and depressed, though much less so than I had been.

What a fucking nightmare.

In other words:

Adderall, I will never, ever cheat on you again =(

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I couldn’t think of a title for this.

But yeah, while my sites & databases were getting moved, I didn’t want to update in case anything went wrong and such, so… I had a lot of forced time off, essentially. I spent my days playing an absolutely insane amount of Persona 3: FES (which lends itself well to killing time… the main story is around 100 hours of gameplay, and the bonus story - which I’m now almost finished with - is supposed to clock in at around 30 hours), getting hooked beyond belief on Death Note, rooting for my… well, not childhood friend, but I’ve known him since I was 15 or so… so, longtime friend Justin on I Survived A Japanese Game Show, and watching the new season of Project Runway - after the premiere last week, Kenley, Korto, and Kelli round out my favorites (got something for the K names this season, apparently… also, up until very recently, I lived within a block of Kelli’s store, Black Market!). Really hating on the tanorexic Blayne and and third-person Suede.

I need to get some real work done, so for now I’ll leave you with three things: this new layout (featuring Aigis of Persona 3; a link to the new paranormal forums for creepypasta.com; and lastly, the announcement that Jamiee has re-opened gerl.org as her personal blog again! Go!

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Tartarus? Sounds like toothpaste.

It seems that I’ve changed. I took it once again, and I’m almost completely the opposite now - INTJ (though my Introvert score is very close to the middle - as I’ve always been right in the middle of those two, I just used to score more on the Extrovert side). Apparently I’m now a “Mastermind”, as explained by Marina Margaret Heiss: